I feel completely overwhelmed right now. I have so many things going on that I never seem to have a break anymore. Between work, friends, community work, and just trying to sleep every once in awhile, I feel like my days are filled with endless tasks.
Then there are my friends. My oldest friend thinks I’m ignoring her in favor of one of my other friends(which isn’t entirely untrue). Another one of my friends wants something that I just can’t give her at this point, and it’s starting to cause some friction between us. Another one of my friends is going through a difficult time in her life right now, and I really haven’t been there for her. I haven’t visited, and I barely even have enough time to call these days. And there is an issue between me and another friend because of someone he has a crush on. I truly love my friends, and I could not ask for better people in my life, but I’m just getting worn down.
It’s all just getting to be too much. I feel like I’m letting everyone down. I like being that guy that people depend on, but I just need a break. I was very sick about two weeks ago(to the point where I didn’t leave the house for almost a week), and the whole time all I could think about was how guilty I felt that I was letting people down.
I wish I could just leave it all for a little while.
